I Just Want to Be the Same! November 14, 2007

It’s so weird. My whole life, I thought I wanted to be special and have a resume of noteworthy accomplishments. I wanted to be recognizable if not celebrity famous. I didn’t want to just blend in and live my life in anonymity (maybe why I left the Midwest). Impatient with my own mediocrity, I’ve been waiting for my moment to shine.

 But now that I feel like God is calling me to step outside normalcy, and enter into a “new thing,” I am surprised to find myself balking. All of a sudden I want to be just like everybody else. “Are you sure, God? Do you really mean me? I couldn’t be the person you have chosen to do that.” I am sounding like Moses on this one.  What is the backup plan? And I am, after all, a regular person. I don’t have amazing talents and abilities that are making national news.

Last year my small group did a Bible study called “Living Beyond Yourself” by Beth Moore. Beth is a stud. She points out that if we’re living in our own strength and living small stories, we’re not participating in the Spirit-led life force.  

 Anyway, I thought I would resume my sporadic blogging with some thoughts about letting go of normalcy and safety and reaching for something greater. Otherwise, my moment might never come.